I simply hope that this is not a dream.. If this really a dream for me, i rather choose not to wake up.. Although my birthday is over but still, i make a little wishes.. Hope that the dream i wish for will come true.. I know i'm quite bad but can't help it.. I lost my mind and soul over it.. Running through my mind every single second of my life.. Maybe it is just a beautiful pass by or will be a starting of happiness for me? I'm afraid to know it.. I run away from the fact, i doesn't wish to face it.. Somehow i feel is quite cruel for it.. But i can't simply just let the happiness go away right? Well.. The fire has started and I'm near.. I will just walk a step and count a step.. I won't look far.. i will look what i having now...