I feel that thing had start to change.. Well.. I think it's just a matter of time.. Soon or after, the thing will just come.. Anyway, I still can take it but not anymore cause I scare that I can't take it.. It's my fault and I shouldn't feel it this way.. I can't help it.. It may appear in realistic or the fact it's just a dream? I keep questioning myself about this.. Since the changes started, I will not hold it as much as before.. Maybe it's just all in me.. Let the moment stop and just let the memories continue running in my mind for life...